So here goes. The terrifying prospect of writing my first blog. How on earth will I start? How do I begin to explain what it is that I want to do? Will I get laughed at? Will anyone want to read my musings?
The truth is I have no idea but if I don’t do it I’ll never know. I feel completely in the dark and cannot see a possible light at the end of the tunnel I have just entered, but to turn back would be worse. I can do this, and I need to do this, for me, for my soul and my gently healing heart.
Nearly two years ago something very sad happened within my little family and the pain was so deep that I wasn’t sure that I would ever recover, but I am beginning to, and part of that is learning to forgive myself and learning to move through life on a different path. It’s actually quite a good path, because on this path I am wiser, I am stronger, and as a family we are pulling through as a tougher team of six.
So who am I? I am a wife, and a Mum to four beautiful children. I am also a trained nurse, proudly working for the NHS. I live in a 200 year old cottage in The Cotswolds with my brood of four and husband of 20 years, and we are about to embark on renovating and extending our much loved home of eight years. Three children are presently squished in to one bedroom, leaving the third bedroom for our eldest. We have one bathroom and it’s all getting a bit too close for comfort with growing children. So we are restoring The Haven with all the skills and expertise that my lovely husband brings to the table, and together with my passion for design and interiors, we hope to create a beautiful space for our children to grow up in.
This is about restoring me and restoring our home, which happens to be aptly named The Haven. A name we disliked when we bought it and we tried for a long time to think of a new name, because it just sounded so cheesy! In the end though we decided that history should not be altered for our benefit. It was called The Haven for a reason we decided, and ironically it has become just that.
I read all the time about other people making their dreams happen and recently someone posted on Instagram ‘You know all those things you’ve always wanted to do? You should go and do them’. So I am, I’m taking the plunge and I’m diving in. What’s the worst that can happen? So, ‘Hello!’ if you have been kind enough to read my words, sweet enough to empathise and lovely enough to return.
Right, now it’s time to get started on Restoring The Haven blogging for real…!